Elsa

I had texted her a message. I said that I do apologize about everything I had done, and probably the wrong thing that I didn't realize. Cause with having no excuse she gets away from me which I don't even know what the cause is. 

I'm still wondering, cause in fact it really bothered me. Every night I had been over thinking upon this. Is this problem? Of course, it is. She means a lot in my life. If she found out a new one, I would say Khalas. It's her choice. If she's happy, so am I. But I need clarity. At least she told me in advance. 

Welts popped up over my mind. It's like an angry red streak. I'm shallow. I missed her so much. I missed the moment where we're spent staying late at every night. I don't know if I can forget her. It's really hit me so bad. 

What's wrong with me????