I'm still confused and thinking how to be success in this dunya and the hereafter. If I asked some of daees, they tend to relate it into hadits of the prophet Muhammad Sallallaahu Alaihi Wasallam, he said that if you chase Sonya, then only Sonya you would get. But if you chase Akhirah, then dunya would included.
But honestly, back then I used think that I gotta start prioritize Akhirat from now on. Then I've once become a diligent and full of eager in seeking Islamic knowledge. I'm being good to my parents. I started to text some relatives, just offering that I want to be helpful.
Not only that, I also start to give them some money, even that much but I'm really sacrificing. I remember when I had contacted with my foster sister, I offer money if she needed. When she said, ya, I right away gave it to her. But afte,rwards, let's just guess I was suffered!
I looked into my bank account and found out I got nothing money left, I'm depressed. By chance in that case I'm still working in the field I hated so much. The problem is not the money that I give away, but I can't deal with the situation that I didn't feel home anymore.
I had been working at Photocopy and Digital Printing for more 3 years. I gotta work for 12 hours a day. I only have one day-off, which is once a week. I burned out. Every day just complain, ungrateful, feeling bad, frustrated until the end I take a resign.
Now I'm living in a rent house charged for 500.000 rupiahs per month. I'm almost a month here (3 weeks) and I didn't see any progress yet, I still figure out how to make living.
I got a lot of plan such as starting off selling products, applying new jobs, being an English tutor, concerning I really love public speaking, writing, storytelling and so on. I'm gonna have a try. Insya Allah.
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