Return to Allah

Stop being "Bucin". Bucin is a term in Indonesia. Indonesian used this term, refers to someone either men or women, when they love someone else excessively, as if when you mesmerize, admire that person so much. You don't want to hurt or did such as conflict, you're also further being vulnerable to get doomed or utilized cause basically you lost your sense of rationality.

And I was on that moment sometimes. Especially in nowadays, I lost contact with someone who I really close with, the apposite gender, even more than friend. We met in free4talk.com. We get to know to one another. We had shared some of the things kind of personal. Including our own picture, even though we just get in touch remotely, but we devoted to make everything fine.

And now, we're being separate, almost never have deep talk like it used to be. Kind of sad honestly. But it is. It is the life. I had learnt from this, that dating always destroy you at the end. It might be the wisdom behind of what Allah said in the Quran "don't ever get closed to zina!" and it is real. Now I felt like that I was so attached to her, and when I have to face the reality that we're not even mahram, I'm not ready. I'm just shallow. 

But recently I met some of my friends, they really care about religion. They're really enthusiastic upon the haq or truth. We struck up by conversation and talk about married life in Islamic perspective. 

We come across some of the interesting things. One of them is a girl and I'm sure she's really into feminism of ideology, she stick up with it. When I tried to tell her about an ayah of the quran "women is the garment of men, and so was men for women", she got shocked. She's surrounded by people who had been broken married life. She got some of traumas and huge trauma may be. 

She asked me, why getting married is necessary? And I was like, it's what Rasulullah told us to do. And we have to obey him. Then she goes, what if someone just hold back to not get married but can handle and protect him or herself, is it ok? I kept saying that it's not even ok. I emphasized, it's impossible for any human being without having any partner in this life. 

Sooner after that, another one, male, just take over and try to explain to her of his own. He agreed with my point, so that he strengthen my argument that I had established. And I saw the girl's reaction, little bit freezing and many times she muttered "Astaghfirullah" and I'm so relief! I understand we can't not simplified some of others' problem cause what the had bee through, it could be different than us. Some people sometimes really need time to deal and being open to other's perspective, that's why Allah told us, "Argue them with any of".

Alright here's what I learned, I'm gonna return to Allah and striving to learn Islam seriously as well as implemented in my dailyb life. This dunya is just a play and temporary, we're not gonna live here externally, till we come to the end of our time then we're gonna go to the hereafter. There indeed we're the best destination. 

I really love writing. I think it is my gift. I love this so much. I'm not bored. I'm really expressing myself thoroughly. I really communicate with my feeling. It's like all the words that had put in, that's some problem that I tried to cast aside. One day I'm trying to write a book. Insya Allah.